I want to have real love and hope I won't settle for less. I want a man who is willing to build a relationship that will last a lifetime. I'm at the top of the list if you like smart, overweight, cute, funny, honest, out-spoken, caring, generous, responsibly irresponsible, too tired to keep listing my attributes, signing off to take an old lady nap, old hippie-type ladies. I used to be very good looking. I was on a diet of almost no food every moment of everyday, for 25 years. About 15 years ago, I decided to eat what I want. I hate being overweight. But I don’t know if I hate it more than eating 5 bites of food per day. I don’t know if I’ll ever have my weight controlled again. So there I’ve said it! Getting older is certainly unattractive. I now have wrinkles and all sorts of older people body-uglies, scars from operations, false teeth (I loathe them), and I’m generally out of shape. JOKE – what is birth control for older people? Answer: Nudity. Oh geez I’m probably not as gross as I describe myself. When I go out to the bar, no one throws up and I still get hit upon frequently. So you can take all this crap for what it’s worth.

Mijn Ideale Persoon: I'm happy to just sit here an watch the wheels go round and round

I don't believe details or self-descriptions really matter. Have you ever met someone and one of your first thoughts is that the person isn’t very good looking? But as you get to know this person, he/she is so extraordinary and charming, he/she becomes better and better looking, until you are completely captivated? Well those are my favorite kind of people. So, in a way personality can change everything.

Foremost, I feel that attraction is everything! If I am attracted to a guy, my list of preferences doesn’t even matter. And just like love there is no accounting for attraction. Hope, meet and see how you feel. That’s the only way. A pic won’t do it.

My time is running out. I’d like to believe I’ll find that guy who has been missing being with me as much as I have been missing being with him. The theory is: tears of joy will flow, hugs, touches, looking into each other’s eyes, and conversation to fill our soul, and more than we could ever ask for will be there, with sincere thanks to God for the gift of each other. > I have seen couples who are so happy we all make fun of them in a good way. I want that! I want it. Or I’d rather be alone. I’ve already had relationships that had to end.